74th Day

Recently I had rather many days when I worked or I was busy with something. We've had visitors from Hungary. I haven't developed a daily routine with yoga and yoga diet either. When I work or have visitors, my schedule gets messed up, and I forget to take vitamins or drink flaxtea etc. I just don't feel I have enough time for everything. Last some days we had small trips almost every day.

Before Madeira I lost 3 kgs, then I gained it back, since then I lost 4-5 again. I have less pain, but I'm still taking Lyrica (and all the other prescribed meds).

45th-52nd Days

Have worked some days. When at work (kindergarden) I have a tendency to forget about the fishoil capsule, and I don't take flaxtea with me either. Well, I still care what other people might think about me. :-D Bad, bad habits!!! LOL. I had a small conversation with one of my collegues about coffee. She doesn't believe that it can cause any problems to anyone. And she told me, vegetarianism is also only a kind of trendy thing only, can't have any good effect. I didn't want to start an argument about these things (esp. that I can't speak that good Swedish). I told her, I don't like meat, which is true, and I'm vegetarian, and I'm glad that I stopped drinking coffee.
Actually I have bought "barley coffee", well, it has chicory in it, reminds me of my childhood when we did get chicory wiht milk. I think I gave that to my daughter when she was small as an alternative to cocoa.

Those days on Maderia weren't very good for my diet - I started "smell old shit" - as the aborinials say in Australia. :-D

44th Day

Back to ordinary life.
Food on Madeira was anything but drufood. :-D I had barley grass with me, but since I often ate out, I didn't have the flaxtea with me everywhere. It was difficult to avoid sugar (so much fruit which are extremely sweet: banana, mango, melon)and gluten.
Anyways I spent a wonderful week sunbathing, swimming (!) in the Atlantic Ocean, eating scabbard fish, roasted chestnut,walnut cake,lupin seed,gaspacho,potato and butter bread rolls,I tasted the excellent madeiran coffee (even better than in Hungary!!! all right, coffee is not dru, but I always had it with food).
It wasn't a big problem not to drink Madeiran wine - though I think many believes it's total sacrilege. We got free wine with lunch once, and I had a glass of white wine, but I felt horrible after it. I haven't mentioned it but I feel sick and get headache even when I smell alcohol in cleaning liquids or in windshield liquid. So then result of me drinking wine on Madeira was that I started sweating, felt dizzy and funny, and I made a picture with my cellphone upside down and I sent it to my man. :-D
I had a very laid back time, slept when it was dark (btw 8pm and 8am, yes that is 12 hours), walking a lot, breathing salty warm air (very good for the lungs) spiced with sweet flower or eucaliptus scent.
For some reason (can be ancient genetic) I love the sea, it is so soft, warm and calming and healing(either bathing or sailing).

32nd-34th Days

Have had the old diet for 3 days (with gluten) so that a bloodtest could be made today.
Beepollen still tastes funny. :-(
Otherwise no problems.
I'll be be in a week, enjoying the warmth of the southern sun.

31st Day

I was at the GP today. She has remitted me to chest x-ray (have to wait for getting an appointment there too), and asked me to eat normally (incl. gluten) so that a blood test can be made next week to rule out if I have gluten-intolerance and/or lactos-int.
Started taking Lyrica 50 - 50 - 100mg (morning, midday, before sleep) bc 50 for hte whole day didn't seem to last without painin the afternoons, evenings.
The scales are showing less and less. Am I opening up and getting rid of the many kilograms of pure fear and cover-up? :-O
Looking forward to eat lots of vegetables and fruit next week! :-D
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30th Day

I was in town almost whole afternoon. I had a cafe machiato and a cookie at one of the cafeterias (Kaffekompaniet, Strömstad). Soon after it I had cramps in my lower abdomen and I had to go to the toilet. Could be three things: coffee, milk or/and gluten. This pain I recognized, I've had it before too. Now I at least know it comes from one of these three things.

24-29th Days

Day 24
Stayed at home, took it easy. It was good that I didn't have to drive yesterday to the swimming course. I was swimming quite OK, and it felt good the day after. I left a message at work that I couldn't work for some days at least.
Day 25
My yoga teacher is sick. Well, I couldn't practice meditation or yoga recently. But he suggested to do some special sequences which I tried anyways. No coffee at home - getting used to it. Sometimes I feel my diet is boring, but I guess my body was used to caffein, sugear, carbohydrates and such. It's like meditation, our mind is used to being entertained, and it even makes up thing to entertain itself. When meditating, there's no "interesting", "exciting" experience anymore, and the mind starts protesting. So does the body when no great sensations.
Day 26
Have had 3 Castor oil pack, first made little difference, but then I started feeling it more and more the days after. Still drinking flaxtea regularly and taking supplementary meds. The stool started to be lighter, softer and 2-3 times a day.
Talked to a good Tibetan friend who was asking about how things were going with me and I checked with him about the Guru Mantra. He actually told me that he could see a trip to India. :-)
I was doing a little seach for Drukpas. I just realized 'druk' means 'dragon'. WHAT ELSE! Time to learn more Tibetan?
Day 27
Slept in the afternoon. I sleep a lot. Am I maybe tired? Less pain, but more sleepy.
Beepollen feels a bit weird, smells a tiny bit disgusting, I have to take it with some fruityoghurt.
Day 28
Felt good in the morning but then coming back from a long walk with our 2 dogs, I started feeling strange: exhausted, headache, freezing. I had diarrea, maybe some fever too. Felt like stomach flu actually. My boyfriend felt something similar yesterday. Can be a virus.
Got reply from Chris. Suggested chanting, some music and deep relaxation.
Day 29
Felt better. had a half of pizza in the evening. One doesn't have to be so strict with diet. ;-) I had water with it. Don't remember having coke or similar for a long time. :-) Still not working. Got the papers from the insurance company. I have an appointment with the GP on Thursday.
Was doing the Moon sequence, was great! fell asleep in relaxation :-D

18th-23rd Days

The last few days I've experienced some bad effects of the higher dosage of Lyrica (pregabalin). Recently I have had 100mg twice a day which resulted that I started feeling sleepy, foggy, difficult to concentrate, blurry vision, difficulties driving car (long reaction time), forgetfulness, confusion. I don't think any of these can come from the diet I'm having. :-) Besides I have close contact with my dietist. I've called the hospital to get help with adjusting the dose, I have to find the balance btw pain and feeling total zombie. (The last some days I had a cup of coffee every day just to be able to have my eyes open.)

My work situation is not very good either, I only get job now and then, but when I have to jump in, I usually get long shifts (8-9 hours) with mentally challenged people (from serious braindamaged to mano-depressive and autism or Asperger's). I wouldn't say it's the least challenging job, though one of the places I work at is rather quiet normally...

I've found beepollen in Hungary (source: my mom :-) ) and in Sweden (please order from here in Sweden: Kinabutin.se) too. It's defitelly cheaper to buy it in Hungary, although buying it in small amount and shipping it to Sweden is not very economical, we can come up to the sum one has to pay for it here in Sweden (around 15 Euro).

17th Day

Bad at:

• having small(er) portions
  
• carbohydrates (glutenfree bread, beans, porridge etc.)
  
• avoiding wheat (discovering buckwheat, quinoa)
  
• having little diary products

Good at:

• taking pills and supplementary stuff
• drinking flaxtea
• avoiding caffein
• taking baths
• eating fresh sallads and seeds
• BACKSTROKE SWIMMING!!! Yippie! (going to swimming course, never was able to learn swimming before) :-D

16th Day

I really enjoy the Epsom-salt evening baths! But the Castor oil hasn't arrived yet, and I still haven't found beepollen. I'm not sure the pollengranulate they sell at Biofood is the same thing. Have to check the homesite of Biofood. I tend to forget about the nettle-tea, and I feel I drink too little when I work. I work in two shifts, 7:00-abt.14 or 15 and from abt. 13 or 14 - 21:00. I try to have my main meals at home, so that I don't have to take lots of supplementary stuff with me, my collegues already think I'm a bit boring because I don't smoke, I don't drink coffee and I don't eat meat. Not drinking coffee can be dangerous in Sweden, the holy land of coffee consumers. The whole society and working style is based on the heavy coffee drinking.
Well, instead I brought apples and I made an apple pie in the evening for their evening (!!!) coffee. I became immediatelly more interesting for everyone. :-) Suuuuugar....sweeeeeet suuugarcoma. LOL

15th Day

I worked late yesterday and I had to get up very early today to start working at 7am. Felt very sleepy, so I took a cup of coffee at work. Otherwise I found that they have macha tea (Japanese pulvered tea)in the cupboard, hidden, forgotten. They don't use it, or maybe one of the collegues does, but I was very happy when I found it. :-D I can promise, it will disappear soon! LOL!



(I'm sorry, Jon, but I'm also one of those tea-freaks! But I never wanted to hurt your feelings about English tea. :-D And you know well, that I'm a reincarnation of a Japanese monk, and you were my disciple then! Recpect! ROFL)

14th Day

Got a new job, substituting occasionally. Didn't drink coffee at all, collegues started becoming curious if I was normal otherwise....hehehe. I worked till 21:00 - little bit confusing when working, I forget about my fishoil capsules, or to drink enough water. Kind of difficult to have so many things in my head, I definetelly have concentration problems! :-) I got a new prescription today: higher dosage of Lyrica (100mg now from 50). Lyrica (Pregabalin) is for neuropthical pain and GAD ( Generalised Anxiety Disorder), and my doctor believes I have that which makes my back and shoulder hurt a lot.

13th Day

Lots of gardening work yesterday and today - lots of energy needed...so I had some nacho chips. :-D Anyways, it's Sunday. I had muesli and soya yoghurt for breakfast, potato-spinach casserole and lots of fresh lettuce for lunch. I baked apple pie (since we have so many apple!!! come and see!) - with rye and buckwheat flakes. All right, rye is not glutenfree, but hey, it's Sunday! :-P
No coffee for 2 days! :-D
I gotto to soak flaxseed for tea. - Soon starting to have new habits/rutines/rituals, whatever you call it.

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Yesterday we were watching Milarepa the film. My friend, Kelsang warned me that it's not worth to watch, cause it's such a bad film. Yes, it's true, not the best film I've ever seen, but I found it interesting to hear Tibetan, to see the wonderful nature, to listen to Tibetan mastiffs barking (I have one). Nonetheless the music wasn't that bad, I was actually positively surprised when I heard a very nice chanting of the Guru Mantra at the end of the film. (Chriiiiiiis, where are you? :-) )

12th Day

Salmon and lots of sallad for lunch...hmmm! Bought new kind of "knäckebröd" (Swedish crispbread) which is glutenfree and I found rawrice crisps too (no added stuff either). I sometimes drink Gyokuro (Japanese greentea) - cause I liiiiike it. :-D - I have lived in Japan in some of my previous lives, so no wonder I like Japanese tea.

11th Day

Sleepy day - got to drink a little coffee to be able to drive to Tjärnö to my favourite (and only) yoga teacher. :-) Weather changing - joints hurting.

(Got a Vishnu-picture and a postcard with an Apollinaire quotation...got two whales/got to Wales!)


Come to the edge," he said
"We are afraid," they said
"Come to the edge," he said
And they came to the edge.
And he pushed them
And they flew...

(Although experts say it was written by Christopher Logue. See link.)

10th Day

Having no coffee causes almost no problem now. Sometimes I feel I eat more than needed, but difficult to switch btw diets, old habits are quite hard to break. :-) Today I had no work (not eve the shortest substituting). I've given myself a lazy day-off which seemed to be a good decision: I slept or was just lying around whole day after I came home from massage. I had another slice of pizza for lunch - anyway, I have a day off. :-P And white cabbage sallad. Oh, and some apples, our apples are getting ready to be picked!

9th Day

Working at the kindergarden whole day, they have school lunch and snacks. I had beancurry with rice and fresh sallad. In the evening I had a slice of homemade pizza before I went for the swimming course. I had lots of pain in the upper back and shoulders in the afternoon.

8th Day

I worked and was busy whole day. I had lunch at work: fishsticks, potatoes and lots of fresh sallad. It was good. No coffee whole day - worked well, no headache or drowsiness.

7th Day

Polenta with cottage cheese - this is going to be one of the favourites! Getting used to the morning routines. And no coffee.

6th Day

My daughter's birthday. We had carrots and nuts with guacamole, fruitsallad and yoghurt - and a Schwartzwald-cake. I was forced (haha) to taste the bd-cake. :-D

5th Day

I had quinoa-porridge and yoghurt with fruit for breakfast. (A little bit of coffee with milk for the taste.) The quinoa made me so filled that I lasted till a little late lunch: 2:30. We had guests. Lunch was fresh salad with seeds, a paprika-tomato-onion stew called "lecsó" in Hungarian, marinated chickpea and one potato. When it was about the dessert I wasn't sure if I could manage an ice-cream. ;-) I did.

I've written a little bit more detailed about today, because there were some who already asked if I was on an "eating nothing" diet. The previous days I had lots of different food every day, but I only made remarks about things which I found difficult (coffee) or which was unusual (flaxtea, barleygrass). Noone should think that I don't eat or I eat very little, it is not true. I'm trying to be nice with myself: have no wheatflour, caffein, candy or such; get no dramatic ups and down in the sugarlevel; have extra water, herbtea, flaxtea, barleygrass in water; take some extra fishoil and flaxoil besides the usual oil/fat intake etc. My aim is not to loose weight - that might come naturally. I'd like to have less pain, more flexibility in the body, more vitality and less depression. I can already feel that the pain in the fingers has disappeared! (They are sensitive for the weather also, and now the weather is kind of sunny and dry, but it can be that I eat no gluten at all.)

4th Day

I had only a little coffee this morning, actually it didn't taste good. I'm managing very well so far, no headache or drowsiness. Porridge is getting boring without nuts - and nuts are not very cheap, so I bought sunflowerseed, and I have pumpkinseed left as well - not too bad. Drinking water feels good, I even mix the barleygrass with water, and that's just fine. Flaxtea is also good, the water tastes like silk. I bought rice crispy bisquits, but than I realized that they contain MSG, monosodium glutamate (E621, flavour enchancer) - too bad! I guess I have to take a closer look at everything I want to buy. (Maybe take my glasses with me as well).

3rd Day

I had a half a cup of coffee with breakfast, otherwise I wouldn't have been able to drive to my therapist (I get backmassage 1-2 a week). Otherwise everything went well. I had two nice walks (Rossö and Saltö). And I had no headache at all. In the afternoon I had a short nap with our kitten. :-)

2nd Day - more observations

The odour of the urine has changed, and since I'm drinking more fluids, the colour is lighter. In the evening I started feeling very tired and shivering - almost like before getting a cold. After a half hour sleep and some pieces of chocolate I got back to normal. (And was able to drive to a friend to pick up a kitten, a new familymember, called Elvis Nyuszi - 'Bunny' in Hungarian...sweet little thing.)

2nd Day

Still alive...sleepy, backpain. Btw breakfast and lunch some nuts and a peach worked very well. :-) I could relax actually so deeply that I slept during meditation, I remember hearing myself snoring and feeling my legs jumping and other cramps. LOL I made my first flaxtea, started drinking this morning. It makes me warm.

1st Day

I started my custom made drudiet today.
The most difficult so far is to avoid caffein. I have headache. I allowed myself a half cup of coffee with milk.
Other observations: I've been sweating a lot since Sunday afternoon. Yesterday I had a rather intensive afternoon with J. and Ch. My evening meditation ended up with a lot of pain in my neck (C6-7). Then I felt warmth in my right foot, and the pain moved to my lower abdomen, then down and out. This morning I was meditating with back support, but it was quite difficult to concentrate, I was drowsy.

This morning I spent with searching after special suppliments such as Epsomsalt. :-) I've found everything except beepollen.